You illusionize about your mind. It’s very difficult! The mind is very strong, the ego is fantastically in control, and the karma is also on top of you. No, I didn’t kick him out. I was surprised at how you can give in to such a thing like that.
What you illusionize about yourself and what you do when you face reality are different. You have a room, next to me, three boys! What do you want more? You have a room with a toilet, private toilet, private bathroom. And there are two bathrooms on both sides for them, even – one with a tub, one with a shower. And they have a toilet, private, everything right in their room next door, in front of the door. (Attached.) Attached, yeah, but not really attached. You know, the corridor like this, and their room at one side, all the bathrooms on one side. That’s even better. Right in front of their door, they walk across. It’s just a corridor. They built it separately, but it’s for them, for this room.
My God, if you are thirsty, you won’t die one time. And it’s easy to bring a bottle upstairs to drink at night if you have this habit. For that reason you move out, for example. (Yes, let them go.) (It’s a big privilege.) Yeah, I know. (It’s a big privilege doing something for You, Master.) It’s not that, but you illusionize about your mind. It’s very difficult! The mind is very strong, the ego is fantastically in control, and the karma is also on top of you. No, I didn’t kick him out. I was surprised at how you can give in to such a thing like that. You live next to me, even! How many people can live next to my room? (Yes!) Yes, for that reason, you could sacrifice a little drinking. You could wait until morning. Even if that’s called “sacrifice.”
I said, “You should...” Before that even, we always talked to each other. I said, “Whatever situation, we are happy, we are lucky! Because look at the African refugees, and others everywhere. They don’t even have water! They have to walk 10 kilometers or 10 miles to get water! And a jug on top of their head! And even then, they might get robbed, attacked and molested in between in between the voyage. Ten kilometers for water, just for a jug of water – if they even have a jug to carry. You see Darfur and everything like that. You know all this, right? So whatever it is, we have the best! We have the best of luck already!” They know all that! And still complained about cannot drink water at night because of the dog(-people).
Because at night, I open the door, so the dog(-people) don’t only stay in my room. Whoever wants to stay in my room, stays. Whoever likes to stretch... Sometimes they like to go out in the corridor and sleep there. Why not? It’s cooler. Some dog(-people) like cooler, some dog(-people) like next to me. They’re all free! The corridor is big, bigger than my room, even. I can fit all the ten dog(-people) in my room, but it’s tight. So, I open the door, so whichever dog(-person) wants to go out, can go out. And because of that, he doesn’t want to go out, in case the dog(-person) barks. But the dog(-person) won’t bark because they know him. He won’t bark. So, what’s the problem? I don’t know!
Just wants to have his own room, because there are four rooms there. So, one person each room, more privacy. I asked already, “What do you want privacy for? To do what? To do something secret that people don’t have to know?” No secret. Because the house is big, of course it’s tempting. It’s tempting to go there have your own room. That will go with time. Now, I give them that room anyway. But that person also had other problems, so, left! Also, family problems and all that. But not because of that (the room); he stayed long after the house problem. After that, I said, “Just stay here for a while, a few more days. Then we clean up the house inside out first, and then you can move. I feel safer that way.”
Because a long time, nobody lived in the guardian house, they didn’t have a guardian. So, they just put all kinds of things in there, like a storage. And when I first came to check the house – I saw it already – I didn’t like it. We have to clean up everything. The carpet was stinking, wet and dirty – everything moldy! You can’t do that, you have to change the carpet, at least. Clean the house, clean everything before you touch it. And we were short of manpower at that time because we just moved. Next day, he wanted to move already! I said, “No! Not now, not now! We have a lot more important things to do first – have to buy more utensils for cooking, and buy vegetables. There’s no time to move there!” And in a dirty, neglected and old, moldy, damp house, long time not used.
But they think I control them. It’s not like that! What for I control anybody? To control somebody, you have to always be with them too, like the police with a criminal, and have to be shackled with each other. It is not... I don’t want that! But the karma, it’s a really incredible thing. And the ego is another incredible thing. My God! I never imagined the karma or the ego can do so much damage to people, to their understanding, that some even go against my order for... Even like [Supreme Master] TV, or in this case, for example. They don’t mean to! It’s just their karma.
You don’t know, some people, some of you had been doing damage to me in the past. For example, took away my possessions or reported me because of jealousy, because of my fame; people loved me, and you didn’t like it, you didn’t understand why, because your level (position) was too high. You were my employee, maybe, or you were my friend, and then you turned against me and all that. And all this residue is still coming back. Not everybody is enlightened. So, I’m telling you, I would be happy if I had nothing, and nobody, no disciples. But the situation is, because I have people, I have pet(-people), I need a house. The pet(-people) are also karma that comes to me, because you don’t want your pet(-person), you give away your pet(-person). Not you, but I mean some. And then all that, I have to take care, for example. All kinds of things I have to take over, because you make a mess of it. For example like that.
Or some people who before, excuse me, murdered me, for example… And even now, they can stay in my house, but their residue is still very, very hurting. Anything they do sometimes, unconsciously, it hurts, because they vowed to come back after being in hell for a long time. They vowed to come back to redeem, to help me, or to do something to redeem themselves. But they cannot help the force of karma – sometimes very strong. The destined karma for this life, they struggle with it. And as I said to you, the residue comes flying to them and clings onto them, latches onto them, and makes trouble also. And if you don’t meditate enough, then these things can cause trouble for us.
So I’m just warning you that things are not as easy like my generosity: Everybody can come to stay in my house, that’s no doubt. I’d love to bring all of you. I’d love all of you even to stay here and meditate. Yes, you could just stay here and meditate, or something. If you don’t have any financial problems, you could stay here; you put money together, and you meditate, it’s also fine. And maybe I... (Can we come here often?) Yes, you come often if you want. You meditate, OK? But why spend so much money coming and going? You meditate in your own Center, also fine! Only when I’m here, you come.
Or if you want to permanently stay because you’re Austrian, and you don’t have anything else to do, and you want to meditate, or you want to stay here to do translation or something, quietly, then it’s also possible. If you can afford just one meal, or 2-3 meals a day, that’s fine. And no burden to anybody. It’s OK. Because I’m not here, so I don’t know who’ll take care of you. So, you have to take care of yourself like that.
One thing: It is very terrible all these years, because sometimes people come to my house and... Of course, I need some assistance, but I never checked people, so they come and bring so much trouble, and sometimes also physically harming me. But I don’t want to say who’s who. So, sometimes it’s not that easy just to take somebody in. From now on, I have to be more careful. It’s so scary, you don’t know that. So scary! Even from afar, if I contact some of you that had similar karma in the past, it will go on “spin” again. It will touch again my physical being, and make trouble for it, at least physically. And that’s how I ran around two days instead of two hours to come here, because I wasn’t careful enough.
I thought I could use some help, but help sometimes costs a lot. And not just two hours, but two days! It cost me a lot more money, because I had to pay so much extra, and for the ticket that I could not use. And the other ticket, it’s not... Can refund the other ticket, maybe, but the ticket already used, I cannot go and claim. I don’t want to; it is too much trouble. Then I have to give them my account number and all that, which is very inconvenient. And it has to be in a certain country and all that, blah, blah, blah. It’s just... So, I consider it lost, all that money, and the extra money for long distance taxi, and everything else. And the whole train cabin, to pay for the whole cabin, and all that. Wasting a lot of time, and walking so many platforms, it’s very exhausting! When I first came here, I don’t know how I could even stand. But you know, I saw your smiling faces, OK, and we talked a little bit. But that night, I was really “dead.”
After I finished talking with you, I was “dead.” And I revived myself the next day at noon. But when I came back, I still could not sleep, even. Something made me turn around, turn around, I could not even meditate well. Because before that, I still had to take care of some other work, paperwork, information work. And then after that, I thought I was tired enough, I’d be “dead.” But then, I turned around all night long! That’s why in the morning, I was “dead.” That’s why you didn’t see me until noon or something. I feel a little ashamed, but... (No, Master, no!) I was just “dead!” I didn’t know anything anymore! If I could have meditated, it would have been better, but I couldn’t. Something just turned me around, around, around, like some pin under your chair or under your seat. That kind of feeling, very irritating. And it should not happen like that to me, actually. But sometimes the karma is so much, it makes you like that.
It’s good like that, so I understand you also; sometimes you could not meditate. That’s why I always understand you, because it has also happened to me, even to me, because I take on so much. And this body, even though it’s super, but it’s also like yours. It’s very strong already, I am amazed! I’m amazed at my little body. I drive it relentlessly with all kinds of things that have been heaped onto it, even many operations, broken arm, pain everywhere. It is really amazing it’s still here! (Yes.) Wonderful! I’m very thankful to this vehicle.
Photo Caption: Being With Nature Is Refreshing for Wellness
