It seems so difficult to live with humans. I told you, this afternoon, there's a “Doctor Do,” his name is Doctor Do, Dolittle. He could talk to the animal-people. (Yes.) And he said he's like a dog-person now – he feels like a dog and he behaves almost like a dog, and he cannot talk well like a human. No polished sentences, and doesn’t talk like a human. He doesn't get on well with humans. He only gets on well with animals. He's been with animals too long. He said like that. He prefers the animal-people. I feel the same!
She said, “If You told me you don't like it, then You wouldn't have it.” I said, “I told them ten thousand times already.” I even a couple of times threw the whole juice outside. I wrote a note, “Orange only! Everything else, you take away.” I threw it out in the yard. And next day, it came back again in the fridge. So, I said to the new attendant, “I’ll just drink it, because otherwise it will be more complicated.” I don't want... I want peace in the house! I’d even drink poison now if he gives me. I’m just quiet and drink. And I said, “Yuck!” Because I don't like the taste. You know, it's mixed with mango and all stuff. I like mango, but I like to eat it, a mango, or drink mango juice alone. I don't like to mix with other kinds. It tastes funny. And I said that. I wrote a note with a heart underneath even. Now I write them letters, I don't write any heart anymore. Only when it comes, then I say thank you, and then with a heart. No heart before.
Oh, my God, I'm telling you! And I like French baguette. And there's one shop that sells good ones. Sometimes the bakery's different, it tastes funny. Because I'm sensitive, I just know the... even just a little different. OK, I won't die, but I said, “Go to that shop. That's better.” And for everybody, too. Not just for me. No! Always some excuse: “I didn't pass by that shop. I didn't have time today.” Always buys something else that I don't like. I eat it also, but I feel very neglected. (Oh!) I just want a baguette. Not like diamond or anything! Lucky, he doesn't have a high-maintenance Master.
Happy (Supreme Master) Ching Hai Day. Go ahead before I blow up. That’s better. Wow. That’s better, better. Sit on the pillow. Relax. Wow. Very nice. Thank you. What was that? (That was from Frédéric Chopin; a little polonaise he composed when he was seven.) Wow. (Oh, wow.) Some genius! (Yes.)
By the way, you guys feel better this time? I bought a couple more heaters. (Yes. Yes, Master.) I told them to… And the toilet’s better, no? (Yes.) Why didn’t you guys think about it? Why do you need a brain like mine to think of toilets? Just rent a couple more. Is it much better now (Yes, Master.) with the extra? (Yes, Master.) For emergency. If eat a lot like this, will wait too long. How possible? Really, it’s better now? (Yes, Master.) Maybe we just keep it like this. What the heck, buying a bigger place, then I have to take care more.
It's really... I’m really tired, you know that? We have a lot of people, but everybody just keeps thinking I’m invincible. Maybe I am, but my body’s not. Every little thing, my God. You have to sense what is right and what’s wrong. Like the keynote. Just hit the right one, don’t hit the wrong one, and the music’s beautiful. Sister, brother, whoever you are. Or you are the bi, or you’re sister, or you’re brother. Yeah, anyway. Practice so many years, and still don't know what's the right thing and what's the wrong thing to do. I'm really frustrated. So used to with Mama being around. That's why sometimes I don't want to be around, so you guys can grow up a little bit, be independent. I didn't go back to Miaoli (Taiwan [Formosa]) for a long time, but whenever they see me, that's it – the baby quality comes out again. “He, he.... he, he, he!” Dear God!
It seems so difficult to live with humans. I told you, this afternoon, there's a “Doctor Do,” his name is Doctor Do, Dolittle. He could talk to the animal-people. (Yes.) And he said he's like a dog-person now – he feels like a dog and he behaves almost like a dog, and he cannot talk well like a human. No polished sentences, and doesn’t talk like a human. He doesn't get on well with humans. He only gets on well with animals. He's been with animals too long. He said like that. He prefers the animal-people. I feel the same! Yeah, sometimes, really, I’m feeding the swan- or the duck-people, but sometimes they relax me.
I’m so stressed out, so much, that I just go out and jump on the golf cart, or walk or whatever, take bread, go to the bridge far away, and start feeding them and talk to them. If you were nearby, you would think, “Master's crazy. Who is She talking to? We don't see anybody around!” That's the main point! Because nobody's around, I like it! Human quality, human personality is really very tiring for me to deal with. The ego is the worst enemy of my mission. They're just so blind, they don't even see it, don't see what they're doing, and don't consider other people's feelings, because the ego just blocks them. Like locked inside a room, don't see anything outside, don't know what's going on outside. Yeah, very self-centered. Almost... like selfish, you can say. Don't think of anybody else or don't know anybody's feelings. Just does what he wants, or she wants, regardless of what you request.
I have another attendant, a new one coming. You probably know one of them from last time. No matter how many people come, she cooks the same, like for two people. Yes, please laugh as much as you want. This is a true story. And I have a witness! The witness is still alive. So, one time I discovered it, I said, “Hey, you cook so little. Is it enough? Because we have ten dog-people and six human beings, you know that? And other pet-people.” She said, “Oh, we still have some from yesterday, a lot, so this should be enough.” I said, “OK.” I believed her. Next day, it's the same. “Hey, there's still something left from yesterday?” “Oh, no, I think that's enough, also.” And then... I didn't think of it much. I thought maybe it's really enough. And because maybe sometimes they don't like the new regime, maybe don’t like brown rice and sesame, so maybe they eat bread or whatever else – (vegan) instant noodles, a favorite, or whatever. So I didn't say anything. A few days, many days I saw like that, and she’d say, “Oh, it's always enough. It's always enough.” Fine!
But one day I felt a little suspicious. So I asked the other people. I said, “Do you have enough food?” “No, Master! Every day, we... Every day, we have to... We're so hungry, and we have to eat just anything.” I said, “Why didn't you tell her to cook more?” “We did, Master! We did! Many times! All of us told her, one by one. But every time we look, it's the same.” There's something wrong with her ears. Not really. Just square. You know, last life karma. Last life karma: stingy, didn't feed people, didn't want to spend money on anybody. This life, does the same stuff.
I have another one. Well, she's old now, bless her soul. It's not like I'm talking bad or anything. I'm just telling you, the ego is troublesome, just blocks you dead! You hear nothing, you see nothing, you feel nothing of anybody else. And those guys are already much better, already less ego, like 10%, for example. Some are even worse – 30%! These people, they go to war all the time. They make war all the time. Like some president “you know.” The name, I shall not mention. Anyway, some are 40%, 50% ego. Oh, you avoid these people, they’d kill you anytime – they won’t even blink. Because they are so self-centered, selfish, they don't consider anybody important at all. Anybody or anything stands in their way, they cut, that's it! No mercy, no thinking, no blinking. No conscience, nothing. Too much on the negative side.
Ego is weighing, is more on the negative. Noble Quality is more on the positive. More Noble Quality – easy to get on with everybody, very pleasant to be with, generous, kind, simple. Less NQ (Noble Quality), a lot of EQ – trouble, trouble! You know what EQ is? (Ego Quality!) Ego Quality! You know everything! How come? She's been there. Join the club. So, I'm telling you, ego is the worst enemy, nobody else. No sin, no devil, nobody. Just the ego. Ego is the last impression from the karma. Also from the... something that you do in this lifetime. Maybe you're spoiled, your background, or you have a PhD or something, and then you think you're a big shot. Problem, problem!